GRR ,

i want this thing , right thereeee ------>>>>
sape nak presentkan ? :D hehehehe
tak nak presentkan tak apa , :@ grr , HAHAHA , masalah .

Fatimah Yusra Bt Ahmad Sidek

I will never ever forget you bestfriend. Although we're not going to be in the same school and country, You'll always be my bestfriend. You've helped me alot. We've been through ups and downs together. Haih . I'm sorry if I've ever hurt your feelings which i think i may have. haha . well you know that im like that kan sya :P hahaha , you guys will be a lot aman-er when im not around nnt. haha :P no one can replace you. NO ONE. I will remember all the times we had together, memories stays. Let's just forget about all the fights we had last year. It was all just a stupid misunderstanding. I LOVE YOU YUSRA <3

new year's eve

Damn fucking boring okay. From morning til night i have to be at the hsptl to take care of Awadah. Haih. Called Oyie and Afzal to take me out but Oyie was in KL and Afzal was otw from Penang and that time he was still at Tapah. But they did call me that night , at 11pm , that time i just got back from the hospital. Fucking tired okay. 1 whole day i was at the hsptl -.- *sighs* and they called at the same time , Oyie called to Baby's phone and Afzal's to Mama's phone , haha , then Afzal asked me whthr i want to follow him to the curve or not , then i gave the phone to Papa and he said 'Where are you guys going ?' 'Curve kot, boleh tk ?' 'No , no , cannot. Count her out ' . Fuck ke tak ? Fuck kan ? so Mama , Baby and me just watch the fireworks from our house balcony. How I wish im not under my parents care anymore.

i miss

well , i cried when i look at these pictures and while listening to Kris Dayanti - Menghitung Hari. its been 8 days since i last met you guys. i really2 miss korang :( like hell. Seriously i do. I love you guys so much doe. i miss chilling with you guys. i miss paan's stupid jokes and silat apa lancau tu. i miss paantat being a nyah. i miss naim tumbuk2 tgn i. altho it hurts tau naim -.- hahaha. i miss azy's lecture . i miss izzroy's being entah lah , bodoh mamat tu . HAHAHA. i miss alya, fizow , eiyka :/ and i miss nadhil the most. his hugs and kisses and the fights we always had. i miss chilling with you guys oh. selalu at this time kita selalu lepak makbul or ou en ;( haih . I LOVE YOU GUYS <3

woah

i dont know why but i'm so excited to move there somehow :S okaaaay , that's weird kan -.- but , i dont know, after browsing that school's website and all , that school looks very interesting , and the students there are very competitive . yeah . eh eh , kalau ckg situ suruh i introduce myself en , i'll say this :
hello there , im anith . from KL . i moved here because my parents think tht im a spoiled brat . well , i think i am :S they send me here because they want me to be a better person . well , i smoke , i drink , i have 6 piercings . dont be my friend . i have a lot already and you dont want to end up being like me do you ? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH .
HAHA , mcm gangster pulak *kening kening . HAHA .
hell no , im not gonna say that -.- the ex principle is my dad's er i dont know what's their relation , ngeh . and still , the ex principle is still teaching there , and he got a daughter . also a teacher there . so im not gonna embarassed my family's name lah kan :O see , im nice kan ? :D hahaha .



and just now , i met Nadhil at rasta. But only for 1/2 an hour kot :| well , he doesn't look okay . i mean , he looks okay but from his face , i can see that he is not okay :| he said that he will wait fr me , and after the PLKN thingy , he'll go to Kelantan and will find me -.- HA-HA syg . im going to boarding school , and its Kelantan we're talking abt . HAHA then he was like , 'oh , ala , 3 tahun je lepas tu kita kawen , then you nak bljr lagi en ' -.- bongok oh dia ni kadang2 . adoiii . HAHAHA. well , after he gone back . he texted to my sister's phone , he said ' i love you so much and take care ' then a few minutes later , he called , he said 'oh sbnrnye td i tgh tahan nangis oh , i nak nangis tp mcm awal sgt ' and i was 'oh bie , im not going anywhere :), haa ? awal sgt ? wht do you mean ? HAHA ' then he said 'nanti if you tk jadi pg kelantan you bgtau i okay ? ' i was ' yeah , nnt i text you :) ' then he said ' okay , bye i love youu so much ' then , after a few minutes , well 15 mins to be precise , he called again , and this time he was crying :| he was like ' *crying* bie , jgn tgglkan i okay ? i syg you ' and i was like ' no bie , i tak tgglkan you , i janji ok , sumpah . dah la , jgn la nangis , semua benda okay alright ' then he was like ' nanti jgn lupa call i , bye , i love you so much ' and i was like ' okay syg , i love you too take care '

i pg kejap je okay bie ? nnt i blk lah :) its not like im going there frvr . i love you bie . and i will wait fr you


dan saya minta maaf dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki kepada seseorang tu . i didnt mean to hide it from you tapi mcm , haih . entah lah . im sorry :| i love youuuu :(

so , this is goodbye ?

i'm moving , wow :o to Kelantan , WOW-er :o . *sighs* i dont want to move there . leave nadhil and my bestfrnds and frnds ? no , haih . just now at the cafeteria , mama and papa talked abt this , even last night . haih . so their serious -.-
*eating*
papa : next year you duduk dkt Kelantan eh , sekolah SMK Zainab(1) . seronok tau tak :D
me : oh , i nak pindah , tp dkt lah sikit . i dont care ada relatives situ ke tak . Penang or Pahang mcm best je * ;(
mama : i care . kenapa Pahang ? *plkn Nadhil dkt situ , HAHA
me : entah .
papa : no , you're gonna stay with kak yus . or you wanna stay with kak yah at johor ?
me : kak yus lah -.-
papa : why not kak yah ?
mama : because kak yah strict , kak yus tak sgt . okay lah , fine . i give you another chance blablabla
me : no , im going .
papa : oh , you tak kesian ke dkt kitaorang ? irdina semua nnt mcm mana ?
me : *yeah right . dah nak hntr tu hntr je lah doe* i want an ice cream . jom baby . papa , nak duit ?
papa : *talking to kak mimi , abt taking care of me nnt .

well , yeah . i didnt really mean to say the 'no , im going' . i was frustrated at that time kot . wht do you expect me to say . haih .

*room*
me : maa , i think i dont want to go lah .
mama : perangai teruk mcm tu tak nak pg . no , you MUST GO , FULLSTOP
me : i want to change school but i wanna stay at home :/
mama : NO , I SAID NO . kalau sekolah belakang rumah tu boleh buat perangai . ni sekolah jauh-jauh ni lagi lah kan ?
me : *td kata nak bagi another chance -.-* hm , okay *menitiskan air mata , haha

how am i gonna live without Nadhil and my bestfrnds ? i love you guys so damn fucking much . especially you sayang :( i dont know how am i gonna live without you, bie :(

dugaan ,

*skip*
*skip*
*skip*

papa and mama suruh aku tgglkan nadhil . how sad is that ?
im stucked . family - me - nadhil . and i love all of them . i dont know what to do . i dont even know why they asked me to leave him . i dont want to leave him .

at first papa called him , and he said okay la kan , if nak kawan , elok2 apa semua . but when he read msgs from my junior yang mengatakan nadhil teruk dan memberi nasihat to me . well , she doesnt even know the real thing . and i just save the msgs because i wanna see her . it was a big mistake not deleting her msgs and i have to learn to ignore wht people say. then after they read the msgs my dad called nadhil and bgtau dia suruh i tgglkan dia . gila , when i ask my dad wht did he told him , he asked me back , wht did nadhil told me . nmenyirap nye -.- i know im only 14 and there's more life than boys but , its love we're talking about .

oh , and my parents think that im on drugs and nak buat urine test . buat la , you're not gonna find anything . it doesn't mean tht if i smoke , im on drugs . *sighs

ohh , and yesterday , my dad said that , if he fnd out tht im stl contacting with him , he's gonna find him and slap him then my dad will be having trouble with his dad , so , if i dont want him to be so called famous , try him . hey, if you want to see im dead , try me ?

conclusion , karma's a bitch babyyy

this is what i get when i broke someone's heart not a very long time ago .

but , its fate right ? what can i do

tp setiap masalah , ada penyelesaiannya kan ?
ill try my best to find how to solve this thing. everything will be just fine nanti . InsyaAllah .
amin