friends ,

i didnt know that it hurts so much when i heard that you were talking abt me behind my back , u said you were my bestfriend , and bestfriends dont do such thing , talking behind their bestfriends back . now i realizes that we're not what we used to be, i wnt it back to the way it was when we were dumb . you know , we were very loyal and honest , and now we dont and we become this twofacedbitchdramaqueenfromhell .

and yesterday , ada this 2 girls like mngamuk because of a cake , they have choices , why dont they choose the right one ? they prefer to marah2mcmapaje to their friends than ckp elok2? apa masalah , i do asked everyone dah dpt ke belum , and sape belum dpt boleh dtg dpn amik , and no one says anything abt tak dpt, so i thought semua org dah dpt , and ada cake lg kan , since semua org dah dpt , buat lah 2ndround . then tiba2 nk mengamuk2 marah2 ckp derang belum dpt and suruh hntr dkt derang , what are we ? servants from heaven ? and what are you ? bitch boss from hell ?

dont you realize that your so called soulmate is using you ? HAHA ,

and if you hate me so much then why are you wearing my pants ? -.- im not blind yet or will never , you know ?

this is life,

this is what we call life , and no one is perfect . so yeah , i woke up and realize that there's so much more to do than just wait one by one to come to me . well , it cant just come to you like that , i have to find it , dig it til you find it . im hurt fr the 2nd time this yr , for some stupid reasons , yeahh but its all settled now , ive moved on :S i guess , ot trying to, wtv :S , thinking what to do next , thinking of my future , think and think some more . yeahh , and everyday i pray to god , and i seem to realize that everyday , every monent of my life mcm tak boleh jd without him :D maybe some of us menyesal ada in this world but that person is soooooo not me , i have great friends , great family , although mcm everyday mst mcm ada yg menyakitkan hati , but that's good , its like menyedarkan you to not do it again or yeah soemthing like that :S . and i seem to have great grades this semester , maybe not that great to someone who like pandai-gila-nak-mati but mcm ok frm last yr :D and i realize that theres no good grades without god and usaha :D USAHA TANGGA KEJAYAAN XD maybe my heart belum terbuka fr tudung but at least i try to cover all my sins with other things that can increase my pahala :) yeahh , that's it fr now , ttyl bye <3

from this <3 to this

am i doing the right thing ? waiting fr you like a pathetic loser bitch ? you just think about HER feelings , what am i to you ? some kind of a waiting machine ? i know its not yr fault , but you have to think , fhm tak ? you main2 kan our feelings , what are women to you ? barbie dolls ? like after dah bosan and yg lg lawa came out in pasaran and terus buang mcm tuu ? i mean , i dnt know whos fault , and i feel very guilty too , i feel like i'm ruining your relationship with that girl, but when i asked you whether you love me or not and u said yes and you said i was the only one , i mean like besides your family :/ and like you nk break dgn dia then dia tanak then she made you promise to her that you wont leave her ? berapa lama i kena tunggu you lg ? what's the point of waiting fr you pun , you've screwed up every single thing ,


you ppl maybe think that i'm a perampas or wtv but you dont know the details , so keep talking , :)

moved on , finally

omg , i think im in love again :) i'm so happy that im not stuck with that dumbass anymore :D yeah ahaha . and 28th of june's a history fr me :)))

thanks for the memories,

well , last night i mimpi yg i dgn my ex get back together :/ well , he was holding my hand tau , masa tu we dah broke up , but then dlm that dream konon nk get back tgthr with me la kot :/
and mcm , i thought i dah get over him , 100%ly -.- suddenly mimpi tu mcm dtg dkt i -.- adoii ,
i am so freaking sad okay , he's the only person yg mcm aaaaaa , i dont know , and bila dah ada mimpi mcm tu , mcm teringat all the things that we've done together , if la kan , IF , pindah rumah as easy as we change our phone numbers :/ i dah pindah berjuta kali dah kot :/ haihh , what's wrong with me -.- i hate myself for still loving him . tp kan mcm tak worth it because he's such a loser , perempuan tu kan mcm toys kot i rasa , ya allah :( pleaseee help me :/ i dont know what to do :| asal dia add i dkt myspace at the frst place ? why did i meet him ? whyyy ? tolong lah , i cant stand living like this anymore , its been almost 3 months okay , why cant i get over you yet ? whyyy ? i hate myself , i hate my life , i hate YOU , why did you do that ? what have i done to you ? whaaaat ? for god's sake pleasee , i just need an explanation , tiba2 je that day i call you and suddenly you ckp i'm too young lah , and i dont understand you ? what the fuck maaan ? -.- tak cukup kasih syg ke apa ? i rasa i dah bg allllllllllll of my heart dkt you , and this is what you did to me ? dump me , yeah , i dont know to who else to bermanja2 accept fr this fucking bloggie , but wtv , i love you bloggie , oh ya , and the 6th day we've broke up , boleh pulak i nmpk dgn minah tu , peluk2 lagi ? when i ask you that day , yg you ada someone else , ckp tak , apa ni ? sape yg tak faham sape ? but stil lah , i tade la nk dump you , tak fikir ke ? org cpl because they want to understand each other , all the prmises semua bull shit , apa masalah you actly ? adoiii ,
and i donk know why i stil loves you eventho u did that to me , its been 3 FUCKING MONTHS -.- lama kot , and still , i belum move on , and u dah tuka 2 gf's , and i dont know til when do i have to suffer like this , i feel like killing my self okay , oh god , i feel like crying :'( i just hope that what i dreamed last night will come true , i dont know why i syg him soooodamnfuckingbloodyshitmuch -.- tlg lah , please , go away , just go . but i dont wnt you to go :( but , AAAA , I DONT KNOW . dah la gf you skrng muka mcm laki , tlg lah , i rasa tak lama lg dpt ah tu gf baru , yelah , cpt boring en ? i understand , HAHA , NO I DONT -.- oh ya , kan perempuan en mainan , sape tak cpt boring dgn toys en ? patut ah , ahaha . i dont know why im talking abt him pun , dah la , mls nk fikir , lagi fikir lagi sakit hati , hati i dia buat smpi calar2 semua , byk scars tau tak , guna vitamin E pun tak hlg2 , evryday ltk bio oil pun tak hlg jugak , just remember that allah nk uji i je , how strong i am :/ i guess , but i know that im not that strong anymore , not before i met him , so i think meeting him was the BIGGEST MISTAKE ive made , i shouldnt have met him that day , I REGRET , aku menyesal aku jumpa kau , aku menyesal kau bf aku , aku menyesal curahkan kasih syg aku dkt kau , AKU MENYESAL SEMUA BENDA YANG AKU BUAT DEMI KAU , and i also believe that every single guy in the world sama je mcm dia ni accept fr nabi je , he's the only one yg faham how perempuan feels , sumpah if aku tak get over him dlm beberapa month lagi , i'll kill myself , i dont know why is this guy so special to me you know -.- , i hate that i love you , dont you remember the days we had tghthr ? HAHA , MMG TAKKAN LAH , okay , i mcm merepek dah skrng , talk abt the same thing after bnd lain , ahahah , mmg fail ah essay if buat mcm ni , but who cares ? this is just a blog , it has nothing to do with exams , and i dont care what you ppl say , im desperate fr my ex ke , ckp lah , because you dont know how does it feels when the ppl you love the most dumped you ? and tade perasaan langsung ? no pity ? and all that , haha , yeah ,

thanks fr reading this shit ,




anith , xoxo

BFH

which means BITCH FROM HELL . haha , lantak aku nk tiru kau , loser


which means Bitch From Hell.

You don't call a senior rude names. It should be the opposite way round. Itupun, we don't do. We don't flirt our way to popularity. We don't trade boyfriends like you guys do. We don't, ok. Shit, i wish i could tell everyone MY side of the story. But this is too public. I'm tired of being the one saying Sorry. Mampus ah dia nak buat apa. Dahla budak keciiiiiiiiik. Ee. Tak malu langsung. You went too far without realizing it. Or, maybe you did realize but you don't give a damn in the world about how the others may feel. Apa hall nak bagi stares ? We're a year older than you. Camne boleh nak buat in the first place, ntah. Like i said, tak malu sial.


Loves,
nadia



lantak aku lah nk stare dkt kau , kenapa ? takut , ngahaha :D kau a year older je , lain ah kau da 20 bodoh -.- budak keciiiik ? excuse me :D kau besar sgt skrng ? :D dah la PENDEK , bahaha :D
aku kisah abt korang punya feelings but then kau yg sakitkan hati aku dulu , what to do ? i push aside the feelings that you guys may feel :D i dont give a fucking cow shit abt your feelings if you mess with me, najis :D i may be bitchy , but , you're not ke ? :D org yg pakai tudung pun ( not you wahida ) boleh jd bitch apetah lagi org yg tak pakai tudung dan amat perasan :D aku nk flirt ? lantak aku lah :D kau bkn mak bapak aku , mak bapak aku tak halang pun :D aku bukannya flirt face to face , msn sudah , kau jealous ke derang tak lyn kau ? BAHAHAHA . ure tired of saying sorry ? you yg start the kesalah fahaman , and u expect i yg nk ckp sorry ? hello , eventho ure older than me it doesnt mean that the younger ones have to say sorry -.- bengong , bodoh ke apa aku tatau . and kau nk penat mendenye ? ahahaha , mcm la kau kena lumba lari or anything -.- duhh , mst la aku tak malu buat mcm tu , if aku malu mcm mana aku boleh buat ? adoiii , ada otak , akal , semua ada aku rasa , tak menggunakannya dgn betul i guess :D pg smyg lah , taubat byk :D ill never forgive you SISTAH , and i dnt care kau nk forgive aku ke tak because you're just a pile of shit to me <3


anith , xoxo

aaaaaa ,

sorry bloggieeeeee , lama tak tulis , miss me ? :D bahahaha x)
well , hmm , stress next week exam :/ i dnt think i can catch up oh :/
mcm fail je all subjects nnt :((( i da jadi bodoh do :/ no offence XD hahahaha
but yeah , mcm lembap je skrng , otak je ada but tale fikir sgt -.- haihhh
i hate stupidility :/
aaaaa , fuck ahh :/ takuuuuut , sejarah and science is like sgt susah -.-
haihhh ,
k ah , nk study , fail karang ada org marah , and kena byr 10 bucks -.-
and and ,
idkw , but pn zaheera , eeeeeee ,
terjerit2 , i mean tak payah la nk mrh sgt , mcm dia bagus sgt la nk pggl kitaorang stupid , dungu
andd all that , but mmg dia bagus pun , kata cikgu en -.-' still
tak payah la nk curse2 murid sdiri , and dia doa kiterang semua mati cpt , -.-
haihhh , dah la she's pregnant , miscarriage karang , nnt nk blame kiterang :@ MASALAH !



bye , xoxo
anithdalilarockstar