dugaan ,

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papa and mama suruh aku tgglkan nadhil . how sad is that ?
im stucked . family - me - nadhil . and i love all of them . i dont know what to do . i dont even know why they asked me to leave him . i dont want to leave him .

at first papa called him , and he said okay la kan , if nak kawan , elok2 apa semua . but when he read msgs from my junior yang mengatakan nadhil teruk dan memberi nasihat to me . well , she doesnt even know the real thing . and i just save the msgs because i wanna see her . it was a big mistake not deleting her msgs and i have to learn to ignore wht people say. then after they read the msgs my dad called nadhil and bgtau dia suruh i tgglkan dia . gila , when i ask my dad wht did he told him , he asked me back , wht did nadhil told me . nmenyirap nye -.- i know im only 14 and there's more life than boys but , its love we're talking about .

oh , and my parents think that im on drugs and nak buat urine test . buat la , you're not gonna find anything . it doesn't mean tht if i smoke , im on drugs . *sighs

ohh , and yesterday , my dad said that , if he fnd out tht im stl contacting with him , he's gonna find him and slap him then my dad will be having trouble with his dad , so , if i dont want him to be so called famous , try him . hey, if you want to see im dead , try me ?

conclusion , karma's a bitch babyyy

this is what i get when i broke someone's heart not a very long time ago .

but , its fate right ? what can i do

tp setiap masalah , ada penyelesaiannya kan ?
ill try my best to find how to solve this thing. everything will be just fine nanti . InsyaAllah .
amin

what a day ,

oh , hari k just now was veryy tiring -.- and some things came up like these things down there :

and sorry lah tak dpt kemas , i've told you earlier that i have to go back early kan ?
you dont need to be mad lah , unless i balik mcm tu je without saying a thing .

oh , and about the picture , I DID NOT LEAN ON HIM , and it was just a picture , i've said sorry , i've done my part , so its up to you to forgive me or not .

oh , and about the boyfie thingy , you dont need to be mad at me , at least im telling the truth , isnt that what you want pun kan ? its kinda a 'thank you' for me though for giving you what you want . oh and please , you're gonna tell 'him' what i've done before this ? go ahead and tell . i dont really care anymore . let's just see how far you can go.

kawan

kawan boleh dicari ,
sahabat ? tidak sesekali .
sahabat yang telah mengharungi through thick and thin .
aku dlm situasi yg sangat rumit sekarang .
I DONT TAKE SIDES , I REPEAT THAT .
how can you choose between your bestfriend and your good friend ?
aku memang tak boleh nak pilih .
nanti one of korang pun terasa kan .
susah la mcm tu ,
so ive made my decision , i dont want to get involve in this thing .
and you guys please , dont try to make me involve in this thing .
altho i know that you were talking rubbish abt me behind my back ,
but hey , i dont give a shit .
no heart feelings taken, alright ?
youre still my bestie altho it hurts so fucking damn much .

dah dah la tu , dapat apa pun gaduh-gaduh ?
tak payah la ungkit cerita lama .
dah tak boleh pergi balik dah pun yg lalu tu .
i hate to see 2 groups pun .
let's just be friends again .

let's stop manipulating stories ,
and stop judging people .
it would be the best not to judge people lagi-lagi your good friends .
because we can't change who they are if they choose to be like that .
or maybe we can perbetulkan kan ?
all of us have choices , so why dont we choose the best ones ?
stop being blair waldorf wannabe alright ?

please , wake up !

im sorry if my words are a bit harsh but its for the best .


<3

the ex ,

setelah sekian lama menghilang ,
hari ini muncul kembali ?
pelik, sungguh pelik ,
aku igt kau terlalu rajin untuk create banyak-banyak account,

				LILOT		hmm?
				LILOT		hye
				he who spawned the fury		who's this ?
				he who spawned the fury		:D
				LILOT		who are you.
				he who spawned the fury		erm
				he who spawned the fury		anith
				he who spawned the fury		:S
				LILOT		ha anith
				he who spawned the fury		haa ?
				he who spawned the fury		and you aree ?
				LILOT		idont think i know anyone with that name
				he who spawned the fury		ah
				he who spawned the fury		i see
				he who spawned the fury		okay theb
				he who spawned the fury		+then
				he who spawned the fury		haha
				LILOT		yeah
				LILOT		have a nice msn session
				he who spawned the fury		yeah
				he who spawned the fury		EH WAIT , ni faiz eh ?
				LILOT		hmm?
				LILOT		what?
				he who spawned the fury		oh
				he who spawned the fury		sokay
10:39:40 PM		he who spawned the fury		LILOT		err aight...

aku bukan saja menanya siapa dia ,
betul , sumpah lupa semenjak kau dah buat banyak sgt account ,
haha ,

'tak kenal maka tak cinta , dah kenal mcm celaka'

oh , aku sudah menceritakan betapa *tutt tutt* punya lah kan mamat ni ?
tak apa lah , redha , cerita lama pun kan ,
dan aku pun sudah berpunya jadi yeah .
teringat semata-mata . tidak ada kena mengena pun dgn dulu .
what past is past .


<3

oct 16

went to bsd , technically to meet mukhlis<3
yeah , it was all good ,
til masa nak blk ,
suddenly danial cant pick me up because his nenek masuk hospital or something ,
there's no cab pun juga ,
but at last he came with abe ,
thank god <3
but you guys , try to be kind or not rude lah sikit ,
please ?
i appreciate that you guys came but tolonglahh ,

<3

hidup ini memang palat , tapi esok masih ada

okay , apa kata jika esok tidak ada bagi aku ?
*aku tidak meminta
hanya memikir ,
aku bukanlah baik sgt di dunia ini ,
aku tidak kata aku jahat , jangan salah anggap,
tapi aku mencuba menjadi yg terbaik ,
sebaiknya aku mencuba , kan ?

aku takut aku tidak sempat kenal dgn dunia ini kerana aku masih muda ,
dan banyak lagi benda aku perlu pelajari , aku perlu tahu ,
aku juga takut ,
sempatkah aku menghapus dosa-dosa aku yang menggunung itu ?
sempatkah aku meminta maaf kpd org-org yang telah aku berdosa ?
ibu bapaku ?
masa tidak berhenti , tidak sesekali ,
jadi , mulai dari sekarang , aku perlu berhati-hati dalam setiap perkara yg aku lakukan .
bukannya aku terlalu memikir , or i think so ,
aku cuma tidak mahu ketakutan mengawal diriku ,

tambahan lagi , sekarang , bermacam-macam tanda hari qiamat sudah berlaku ,
itu membuatkan aku lebih takut ,
adakah aku cukup baik untuk masuk ke syurgamu ?
adakah aku terlalu jahat untuk masuk ke nerakamu , ya tuhan ?
itu terletak atas diriku sendiri ,

aku meminta maaf , dari hujung rambut , smpi hujung kaki sekiranya aku telah membuat siapa2 terluka , atau terasa , aku tahu itu semua bukan sengaja , or if it is kau yg mula dulu ,
apa-apa pun , what past is past .


<3

you made my day ,

went to ou yesterday ,
watched KAMI , and i cried bila abu mati ,
it was like , omg kot :/
im sure yg dia tak mati pun , if dia mati mst ada tunjuk2 kubur2 and all en ? haha
and plus the doctor didnt say anything pun , mst ada the next kami , sape nak bett ? :P
HAHA ,

oh , went there with oyie and mukhlis ;)
heh

<3