balik kampung ,

ive packed , at last :)
haha ,
brought 12 baju's , 4 jeans , 2 cardigans , 4 baju tidur
haih , for only 5 days and 4 nights , haha pretty much heh ? :/

so , im gonna be away for a while , so , miss me :D

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jangan lah buat hal,

kau nak buat hal time-time genting mcm ni la pulak kan ?
apa masalah kau actually eh ?
ee , tak prnh2 pun jadi mcm ni ,
if dlm kereta aku bosan nnt mcm mana ?
tolonglah , Ya Allah ,
aku memohon kepadamu untuk computerku connect kepada ipodku
amin ya rabbal a lamin

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haih

off to penang tomorrow night , or evening ,
didnt pack yet ,
i dont feel like going , HA-HA as if thats gonna happen


haih , i dont feel right :/
i need the answers now ,
boleh tak ?
omg anith , you have issues , thats what harreyka always say -.- haha
i think im having a teenage life crisis , or not . haha


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whaaat ?

im not in the mood to write , or even talk ,
theres tons of questions popping in my head for you to answer ,
so get ready ,
please ?


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woah ,

feeling better now , kot ? hahaha

had seni , sivik and maths paper today ,

cheated all of seni and sivik's questions ;)
chill lah , test baru ,

texted my maths tuition teacher during maths paper ,
asking for the answer XD
HAHA , jahat kan ? :0

well ,


saya berjanji akan (or trying to , ngeh ) :
- study at least 2 hours a day like i used to
- online at least 1 hr 30 mins (as if , ahaha)
- smyg 5 times ( selalu tertggl asar )
- hmm , eat less-er HAHA

that's all for now kot :/ haha


and nk shopping baju rayaaa ! :(


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ohh myyy goddd ,

i went to jasema enterprise just now to buy a few rujukan books since dah nk dkt exam and buku rujukan yg lama da hilang kot and mcm tak berfaedah pon yg tuu -.-
so yeah , i went there to buy new ones and yg lagi useful la kan ,

then suddenly my dad mcm , 'oh , how did you know buku tu keluar dkt pasaran ?'
and i was like 'whaaaaat ? :S'
then dia mcm 'mcm mana awak tau yg blablabla *tk dgr sgt '
then i was like 'duuuuuuuuuuuuuh , ckg semua tu guna :S , duh papa -.-'
then he was like 'oh , okay , blk nnt study til 3am , mcm main computer tuu'

OKAY , wtf is his problem ?
dia yg suruh org study and all then suddenly mrh pulak beli buku ni ?
WHAT THE FUCK ?
apa masalah doe , urghhh , dia yg selalu babble ckp 'oh , awak tak membaca , tak jadi pndi '
eee , then , what happens now ?
sumpah , mcm , eeeeeee , tatau la nk ckp apa ,
dia suruh i bangga kan dia la and all , now , I AM TRYING , to do so , cant you see ? or you just dont really believe that i can be more than you think i can ?

you dont have to compare me with my friends , YOU , dont know anything ,
ANYTHING ABOUT ME , NOR MY FRIENDS ,
then only thing that you care about is baby , baby , baby , baby , and the upcoming baby ,
which he tells , almost ALL , of his friends that i wanted to have a new brother/sister , which is SO UNTRUE , kalau boleh tanak pon ,
bila this baby lahir lagi lah ,

i am really trying to change okay , but if you're acting like this , how can i ?
haihh , even if its not my fault you will still shout at me and all
i cant stand this thing okay , please for once , try to understand me ,
*how i hope he's reading this shit

and the most unforgettable moment is , you called me STUPID , in front of a bloody electricianist-wtv-crap guy , kalau dkt rumah tu tak apa la , and it is because of a FUCKING IRON THAT YOU DONT EVEN USE FOR GOD'S SAKE ,
and i did cried at that moment , i feel like killing myself , oh my god , imagine your own dad pggl you stupid or bangang .
how does it feels ?

im not that stupid am i ? :/ kan ?

or maybe i am , 4th class over 8 , 3rd in the class over 36 , , yeah , stupid , VERY .
thank you for your kindness , or apa2 yg saya dah menyusahkan hidup papa ,
i really appreciate it and still respect you and still anggap you as my dad ,
thank you , and pleasee , do forgive me if before this ive ever hurt you or anything ,
thank you for not understanding me , thank you for every fucking thing .


it really really really hurt my feelings , you're here , or not , it doesnt make any diff.


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and now i really really need someone to talk to , to cry to ,
someone who undestands me ,
where are you when i need to talk to you ?
well , i dont even know whther you understand me or not ,
but right now , i just want to talk to you .

september 22 ,

today wass sooo funn ,
i guess its the end of the so called sadness week :D hahaha

here are some pictures of us being crazy :D enjoy , haha

ignore me , just look at her face XD

this is my , i can say bestie , atiqah :D haha





and we are the boobies grabber XD

okaaaaay , enough information , hahaha






oh and we had english and bahasa paper just now ,
it is soooo damn easy maaan XD
celah bontot je XD
HAHAHA ,


but i did cheat , i mean , sape tak prnh kan ?
hahaha , texted atiqah during the test ,
tak berkat puasa XD heh
tp , life's brief candle tuu susah doe :/
but hopefully dpt A la kan , its like hello -.- everyday punya language kot , :/

tmrw's seni , sivik and maths :/
im soo gonna study fr maths ,
one of my fav subj tho :/
haha ,



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