i miss

well , i cried when i look at these pictures and while listening to Kris Dayanti - Menghitung Hari. its been 8 days since i last met you guys. i really2 miss korang :( like hell. Seriously i do. I love you guys so much doe. i miss chilling with you guys. i miss paan's stupid jokes and silat apa lancau tu. i miss paantat being a nyah. i miss naim tumbuk2 tgn i. altho it hurts tau naim -.- hahaha. i miss azy's lecture . i miss izzroy's being entah lah , bodoh mamat tu . HAHAHA. i miss alya, fizow , eiyka :/ and i miss nadhil the most. his hugs and kisses and the fights we always had. i miss chilling with you guys oh. selalu at this time kita selalu lepak makbul or ou en ;( haih . I LOVE YOU GUYS <3

woah

i dont know why but i'm so excited to move there somehow :S okaaaay , that's weird kan -.- but , i dont know, after browsing that school's website and all , that school looks very interesting , and the students there are very competitive . yeah . eh eh , kalau ckg situ suruh i introduce myself en , i'll say this :
hello there , im anith . from KL . i moved here because my parents think tht im a spoiled brat . well , i think i am :S they send me here because they want me to be a better person . well , i smoke , i drink , i have 6 piercings . dont be my friend . i have a lot already and you dont want to end up being like me do you ? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH .
HAHA , mcm gangster pulak *kening kening . HAHA .
hell no , im not gonna say that -.- the ex principle is my dad's er i dont know what's their relation , ngeh . and still , the ex principle is still teaching there , and he got a daughter . also a teacher there . so im not gonna embarassed my family's name lah kan :O see , im nice kan ? :D hahaha .



and just now , i met Nadhil at rasta. But only for 1/2 an hour kot :| well , he doesn't look okay . i mean , he looks okay but from his face , i can see that he is not okay :| he said that he will wait fr me , and after the PLKN thingy , he'll go to Kelantan and will find me -.- HA-HA syg . im going to boarding school , and its Kelantan we're talking abt . HAHA then he was like , 'oh , ala , 3 tahun je lepas tu kita kawen , then you nak bljr lagi en ' -.- bongok oh dia ni kadang2 . adoiii . HAHAHA. well , after he gone back . he texted to my sister's phone , he said ' i love you so much and take care ' then a few minutes later , he called , he said 'oh sbnrnye td i tgh tahan nangis oh , i nak nangis tp mcm awal sgt ' and i was 'oh bie , im not going anywhere :), haa ? awal sgt ? wht do you mean ? HAHA ' then he said 'nanti if you tk jadi pg kelantan you bgtau i okay ? ' i was ' yeah , nnt i text you :) ' then he said ' okay , bye i love youu so much ' then , after a few minutes , well 15 mins to be precise , he called again , and this time he was crying :| he was like ' *crying* bie , jgn tgglkan i okay ? i syg you ' and i was like ' no bie , i tak tgglkan you , i janji ok , sumpah . dah la , jgn la nangis , semua benda okay alright ' then he was like ' nanti jgn lupa call i , bye , i love you so much ' and i was like ' okay syg , i love you too take care '

i pg kejap je okay bie ? nnt i blk lah :) its not like im going there frvr . i love you bie . and i will wait fr you


dan saya minta maaf dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki kepada seseorang tu . i didnt mean to hide it from you tapi mcm , haih . entah lah . im sorry :| i love youuuu :(

so , this is goodbye ?

i'm moving , wow :o to Kelantan , WOW-er :o . *sighs* i dont want to move there . leave nadhil and my bestfrnds and frnds ? no , haih . just now at the cafeteria , mama and papa talked abt this , even last night . haih . so their serious -.-
*eating*
papa : next year you duduk dkt Kelantan eh , sekolah SMK Zainab(1) . seronok tau tak :D
me : oh , i nak pindah , tp dkt lah sikit . i dont care ada relatives situ ke tak . Penang or Pahang mcm best je * ;(
mama : i care . kenapa Pahang ? *plkn Nadhil dkt situ , HAHA
me : entah .
papa : no , you're gonna stay with kak yus . or you wanna stay with kak yah at johor ?
me : kak yus lah -.-
papa : why not kak yah ?
mama : because kak yah strict , kak yus tak sgt . okay lah , fine . i give you another chance blablabla
me : no , im going .
papa : oh , you tak kesian ke dkt kitaorang ? irdina semua nnt mcm mana ?
me : *yeah right . dah nak hntr tu hntr je lah doe* i want an ice cream . jom baby . papa , nak duit ?
papa : *talking to kak mimi , abt taking care of me nnt .

well , yeah . i didnt really mean to say the 'no , im going' . i was frustrated at that time kot . wht do you expect me to say . haih .

*room*
me : maa , i think i dont want to go lah .
mama : perangai teruk mcm tu tak nak pg . no , you MUST GO , FULLSTOP
me : i want to change school but i wanna stay at home :/
mama : NO , I SAID NO . kalau sekolah belakang rumah tu boleh buat perangai . ni sekolah jauh-jauh ni lagi lah kan ?
me : *td kata nak bagi another chance -.-* hm , okay *menitiskan air mata , haha

how am i gonna live without Nadhil and my bestfrnds ? i love you guys so damn fucking much . especially you sayang :( i dont know how am i gonna live without you, bie :(

dugaan ,

*skip*
*skip*
*skip*

papa and mama suruh aku tgglkan nadhil . how sad is that ?
im stucked . family - me - nadhil . and i love all of them . i dont know what to do . i dont even know why they asked me to leave him . i dont want to leave him .

at first papa called him , and he said okay la kan , if nak kawan , elok2 apa semua . but when he read msgs from my junior yang mengatakan nadhil teruk dan memberi nasihat to me . well , she doesnt even know the real thing . and i just save the msgs because i wanna see her . it was a big mistake not deleting her msgs and i have to learn to ignore wht people say. then after they read the msgs my dad called nadhil and bgtau dia suruh i tgglkan dia . gila , when i ask my dad wht did he told him , he asked me back , wht did nadhil told me . nmenyirap nye -.- i know im only 14 and there's more life than boys but , its love we're talking about .

oh , and my parents think that im on drugs and nak buat urine test . buat la , you're not gonna find anything . it doesn't mean tht if i smoke , im on drugs . *sighs

ohh , and yesterday , my dad said that , if he fnd out tht im stl contacting with him , he's gonna find him and slap him then my dad will be having trouble with his dad , so , if i dont want him to be so called famous , try him . hey, if you want to see im dead , try me ?

conclusion , karma's a bitch babyyy

this is what i get when i broke someone's heart not a very long time ago .

but , its fate right ? what can i do

tp setiap masalah , ada penyelesaiannya kan ?
ill try my best to find how to solve this thing. everything will be just fine nanti . InsyaAllah .
amin

what a day ,

oh , hari k just now was veryy tiring -.- and some things came up like these things down there :

and sorry lah tak dpt kemas , i've told you earlier that i have to go back early kan ?
you dont need to be mad lah , unless i balik mcm tu je without saying a thing .

oh , and about the picture , I DID NOT LEAN ON HIM , and it was just a picture , i've said sorry , i've done my part , so its up to you to forgive me or not .

oh , and about the boyfie thingy , you dont need to be mad at me , at least im telling the truth , isnt that what you want pun kan ? its kinda a 'thank you' for me though for giving you what you want . oh and please , you're gonna tell 'him' what i've done before this ? go ahead and tell . i dont really care anymore . let's just see how far you can go.

kawan

kawan boleh dicari ,
sahabat ? tidak sesekali .
sahabat yang telah mengharungi through thick and thin .
aku dlm situasi yg sangat rumit sekarang .
I DONT TAKE SIDES , I REPEAT THAT .
how can you choose between your bestfriend and your good friend ?
aku memang tak boleh nak pilih .
nanti one of korang pun terasa kan .
susah la mcm tu ,
so ive made my decision , i dont want to get involve in this thing .
and you guys please , dont try to make me involve in this thing .
altho i know that you were talking rubbish abt me behind my back ,
but hey , i dont give a shit .
no heart feelings taken, alright ?
youre still my bestie altho it hurts so fucking damn much .

dah dah la tu , dapat apa pun gaduh-gaduh ?
tak payah la ungkit cerita lama .
dah tak boleh pergi balik dah pun yg lalu tu .
i hate to see 2 groups pun .
let's just be friends again .

let's stop manipulating stories ,
and stop judging people .
it would be the best not to judge people lagi-lagi your good friends .
because we can't change who they are if they choose to be like that .
or maybe we can perbetulkan kan ?
all of us have choices , so why dont we choose the best ones ?
stop being blair waldorf wannabe alright ?

please , wake up !

im sorry if my words are a bit harsh but its for the best .


<3

the ex ,

setelah sekian lama menghilang ,
hari ini muncul kembali ?
pelik, sungguh pelik ,
aku igt kau terlalu rajin untuk create banyak-banyak account,

				LILOT		hmm?
				LILOT		hye
				he who spawned the fury		who's this ?
				he who spawned the fury		:D
				LILOT		who are you.
				he who spawned the fury		erm
				he who spawned the fury		anith
				he who spawned the fury		:S
				LILOT		ha anith
				he who spawned the fury		haa ?
				he who spawned the fury		and you aree ?
				LILOT		idont think i know anyone with that name
				he who spawned the fury		ah
				he who spawned the fury		i see
				he who spawned the fury		okay theb
				he who spawned the fury		+then
				he who spawned the fury		haha
				LILOT		yeah
				LILOT		have a nice msn session
				he who spawned the fury		yeah
				he who spawned the fury		EH WAIT , ni faiz eh ?
				LILOT		hmm?
				LILOT		what?
				he who spawned the fury		oh
				he who spawned the fury		sokay
10:39:40 PM		he who spawned the fury		LILOT		err aight...

aku bukan saja menanya siapa dia ,
betul , sumpah lupa semenjak kau dah buat banyak sgt account ,
haha ,

'tak kenal maka tak cinta , dah kenal mcm celaka'

oh , aku sudah menceritakan betapa *tutt tutt* punya lah kan mamat ni ?
tak apa lah , redha , cerita lama pun kan ,
dan aku pun sudah berpunya jadi yeah .
teringat semata-mata . tidak ada kena mengena pun dgn dulu .
what past is past .


<3