well , last night i mimpi yg i dgn my ex get back together :/ well , he was holding my hand tau , masa tu we dah broke up , but then dlm that dream konon nk get back tgthr with me la kot :/
and mcm , i thought i dah get over him , 100%ly -.- suddenly mimpi tu mcm dtg dkt i -.- adoii ,
i am so freaking sad okay , he's the only person yg mcm aaaaaa , i dont know , and bila dah ada mimpi mcm tu , mcm teringat all the things that we've done together , if la kan , IF , pindah rumah as easy as we change our phone numbers :/ i dah pindah berjuta kali dah kot :/ haihh , what's wrong with me -.- i hate myself for still loving him . tp kan mcm tak worth it because he's such a loser , perempuan tu kan mcm toys kot i rasa , ya allah :( pleaseee help me :/ i dont know what to do :| asal dia add i dkt myspace at the frst place ? why did i meet him ? whyyy ? tolong lah , i cant stand living like this anymore , its been almost 3 months okay , why cant i get over you yet ? whyyy ? i hate myself , i hate my life , i hate YOU , why did you do that ? what have i done to you ? whaaaat ? for god's sake pleasee , i just need an explanation , tiba2 je that day i call you and suddenly you ckp i'm too young lah , and i dont understand you ? what the fuck maaan ? -.- tak cukup kasih syg ke apa ? i rasa i dah bg allllllllllll of my heart dkt you , and this is what you did to me ? dump me , yeah , i dont know to who else to bermanja2 accept fr this fucking bloggie , but wtv , i love you bloggie , oh ya , and the 6th day we've broke up , boleh pulak i nmpk dgn minah tu , peluk2 lagi ? when i ask you that day , yg you ada someone else , ckp tak , apa ni ? sape yg tak faham sape ? but stil lah , i tade la nk dump you , tak fikir ke ? org cpl because they want to understand each other , all the prmises semua bull shit , apa masalah you actly ? adoiii ,
and i donk know why i stil loves you eventho u did that to me , its been 3 FUCKING MONTHS -.- lama kot , and still , i belum move on , and u dah tuka 2 gf's , and i dont know til when do i have to suffer like this , i feel like killing my self okay , oh god , i feel like crying :'( i just hope that what i dreamed last night will come true , i dont know why i syg him soooodamnfuckingbloodyshitmuch -.- tlg lah , please , go away , just go . but i dont wnt you to go :( but , AAAA , I DONT KNOW . dah la gf you skrng muka mcm laki , tlg lah , i rasa tak lama lg dpt ah tu gf baru , yelah , cpt boring en ? i understand , HAHA , NO I DONT -.- oh ya , kan perempuan en mainan , sape tak cpt boring dgn toys en ? patut ah , ahaha . i dont know why im talking abt him pun , dah la , mls nk fikir , lagi fikir lagi sakit hati , hati i dia buat smpi calar2 semua , byk scars tau tak , guna vitamin E pun tak hlg2 , evryday ltk bio oil pun tak hlg jugak , just remember that allah nk uji i je , how strong i am :/ i guess , but i know that im not that strong anymore , not before i met him , so i think meeting him was the BIGGEST MISTAKE ive made , i shouldnt have met him that day , I REGRET , aku menyesal aku jumpa kau , aku menyesal kau bf aku , aku menyesal curahkan kasih syg aku dkt kau , AKU MENYESAL SEMUA BENDA YANG AKU BUAT DEMI KAU , and i also believe that every single guy in the world sama je mcm dia ni accept fr nabi je , he's the only one yg faham how perempuan feels , sumpah if aku tak get over him dlm beberapa month lagi , i'll kill myself , i dont know why is this guy so special to me you know -.- , i hate that i love you , dont you remember the days we had tghthr ? HAHA , MMG TAKKAN LAH , okay , i mcm merepek dah skrng , talk abt the same thing after bnd lain , ahahah , mmg fail ah essay if buat mcm ni , but who cares ? this is just a blog , it has nothing to do with exams , and i dont care what you ppl say , im desperate fr my ex ke , ckp lah , because you dont know how does it feels when the ppl you love the most dumped you ? and tade perasaan langsung ? no pity ? and all that , haha , yeah ,
thanks fr reading this shit ,
anith , xoxo
3 comments:
faaaak! i know how u feel, literally.
guys think its alright for them to do these things to us girls.
but they don't know, and probably wouldn't give a fuck,
that we, have feelings too.
omg adik!
u did tell me u dreamt of him, but u didnt tell me u teruk mcm nih.
haih.
jgn bunuh diri.
sapa nk g pav ng i kn?
u'll get over it.
i'll help u through it okeyh.
u deserve better and u'll meet the better guy.
the feeling will go away.
=D
and u can stil manja2 ng i though i ni gal kn.
haha.
bukan les okeyh.
see u!
hey babe. mel here. i know how you feel. i felt it before. tp sumpah i ckp. mine is worst than yours. more worst!
just chill. lelaki mmg cmtue. i dh kene 2 times! until now, i can't get over two of them. one is my ex and another is my ex-scandel. eventhough he is just my SCANDEL, but i ngn die dh mcm couple. and he is the only guy yg i bwk towards my family. die mmg rapat gile dgn family i.
so just chill okay? i still can't get over my two of them almost one year dh taw!
and there are sooooo many scars at my body. smpi hari ni ade lg..
just chill sayang. i tgk u byk kwn yg bolrh happy kan u. tp my life, x mcm yours. don't think that your life lah yg paling teruk. cause THERE IS more worst than yours outside there. for example, your friend here, it's me. =)
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