raya raya raya ,

aaaa , i dont know what to buy since i didnt wear last year's baju raya yet , :/ got 5 for last year , wore 2 , another 3 masuk muzeum , haha . dont know whther still muat ke tak , hahaha , XD

i dont know why but i dont feel like raya-ing , this year :/ usually ill buy mercun and all but this year ? this year is so different , everything's changed ,
people ,
loveness ,

haih , i want it back to the way it was , when everything was perfect , when the family's reunite at mi's(ummi) house ,
but now mi is gone ,
abah got a new step-witch , which he's the 3rd husband (and dia tau bila da kawen , how stupid is that ? ) i guess -.- pfft , *cpt2 lah divorce XD
not that i dont like her , well , honestly , nobody likes her accept for her family lah kan , 8 children ? wow , that's pretty amazing huh ?
apa la dia mandrem abah smpi jd mcm tuu :( *i mean , ure an ustaz , how can you marry someone like that ? her son is a pencuri , for god's sake , tolonglah -______- urghhh
haih , well , i cant do anything , takkan ttbe nak ' abah , bila nk divorce ? '
karang kena pulak ' gapo ni cucuk2 hidung serupo lembu ? pg smaye nuh '
habis lah :/

haha , now im talking crap , okay forget about that ,

but , i just miss mi sometimes :/ i feel like crying , omg , im crying , haihh , its been a sadful week huh ?
she's like a mum to me okay , she's the one who take care of me , haihh , it feels like your mum is gone or something , not that my mum is gone but she took care of me when i was like what ? 2 months til im 5 years old , hows that ? and she's a bit diff from my mum , oh , A BIT ? correction ; CONTRA , i can say , sorry but yeah . haha


this is another thing i dont like abt raya -_____-
well , i , anith dalila usually blk kelantan berseorang , tidak beraya di penang , iaitu at my mum's mum which i can say my grandmother on my mum's side ,
i dont know why but i hate going there -.- not that i hate my grandmother or something just that i dont feel like she (or anyone from my mum's side) loves me pun , :S
and i dont really know family dia punya side thingy thingy , wtv crap , i just kinda tak 'click' dgn diorang .
selalu this yr kelantan , next year penang , then kelantan but skrng since mi is gone , penang je smpi bile2 , gile -___- dah la duduk 3 hari , omg , i cant live with that :(
lps tu blk kelantan bukan duduk dkt rumah dkt kg , duduk dkt hotel ,-.- rumah tu da la besar , nk jugak waste duit , tak faham lahhh , masalahh semua orang , -_________-

esok exam , im soooooooo gonna hmm , not fail but somewhre there ,


you know you love me , xo xo
HAHA :D